Loving, Longing, Living.

I love you. I love you so much. I want to hold you and kiss you, and tell you how much I need you. I don’t want to look at you like some trophy as other men will, I want you to be your own person, and I want to watch you grow and take shape for the rest of your life. I want to get married and have a beautiful family, and we can go on picnics, and take vacations, and watch the sun set along the ocean shore. We will cuddle all night, and then sit and watch the sun rise again, and kiss just as the tip of the sun crests over the horizon. I love you so much, if only this fairytale could be true.

Trying my best to keep busy lately to keep my mind off of stupid things and stupid people. Seems to be working pretty well, getting a lot of photo business, and am busy playing a lot as well. Just waiting for love, but kinda hoping it takes its time, but not. Meh, things happen when you least expect it I guess. Wish I had someone to hold and cuddle though… I miss that more than anything in my life right now, I really need it.

miss-mullica:

I have a problem, I’ve been taking everything very literal lately. I think for the longest time I’ve felt constantly lied to or things have been kept hidden from me. I am yearning for real honesty. I want to feel safe that someone is only going to give me the truth. That I’ll never have to be afraid.

Good lord this is how I feel lately.

I miss your smile

I miss your touch

I miss your lips, and the way you would blush.

The late nights in bed

The talks on the phone

The feeling of just us, as the stars above shone.

I miss your skin

And caressing your hips

Staring into your eyes, my heart doing flips.

All that is gone

Never again to be known

I just miss you, when I had you as my own.

I’m definitely feeling ready to find that woman I can marry. Have you seen her?